"I can't find the words to tell you what I'm feeling"...Ronan Keating
I feel wretched. Today, I finished "Emily's Quest"...I lived her part over and over again at the rejection and humiliation. I feel very miserable now! I must be crazy! But its true.....Its like this..."love" in my life was one of my most cherished dreams......I always feel I have no ambition or aim in my life...if I had anything remotely close to an aim..it is I want to get married to a man I love and who loves me( the latter part complementing the former seems impossible now)..I want to have a family...
I belive in love..I envy Du n Rpr...I am so sure of thier love amidst all thier fights...I can feel it, and it is beautiful...
But what is happening to me is stifling me...making me deviod of any hope ....making me bitter at life..making me to want to feel like rock,unfeeling....making me bad! And I sit here, crying my eyes out over this trifling thing...but its like my heart is broken...to pieces....I guess am well off being alone.
Sorry for letting myself down God...I might recooperate.....I dunno..
Sorry for having less faith in you....sometimes the going gets tough..and I am sorry..I am not very tought either ...
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