Sometimes, you start a day with complete enthusiasm ; then something crops up to leave you numbed. And, for me that needn't be any disatrous reason. I can droop like a touch-me - not in a matter of a few moments. I have a filthy emotional streak where "I" am concerned...I get too touchy about myself....And, I don't get atall emotional over others....What a girl I am!!!
I talked to JC yesterday. It was all based on intuition. This is the 3rd ime I am calling , and the zeroth time that he is! Yesterday, I made the decision never to call him ever again. So there!!!! You see , what happened yesterday was that , I felt wretched after the call got cut( my phone's balance got over)...then tat dude didn't even give a backward glance( if u know wat I mean)...not even a message...I don't care if he was tired..went for shopping the entire day, he did! So what! Yeah yeah..I know the problem is with me..I expect too much , from a nobody ...
I had gone to meet Asha aunty...I had a nice time. We talked about Rubina. She is now staying in an apartment in her college, with a friend(she gets along very well with). Ruby now cooks, and cleans...n what not! She is infected with a virus(sounded like 'mono' to me) , due to too much stress, and lack of sleep. I wish got mono, atleast a bit ...here, I am infected with laziness to a tumult that is unacceptable. Well, after Ruby graduates, she plans on working somewhere ( her institution big guns have promised to give her recommendation...) for 6 months, during which she will think about what to do next. She and 3 of her gf's will share an apartment. Asha was very nostalgically referring to her being 21 this month. "She is becoming 'legal' , like she was illegal all this time :) "
Ruby's grama was hospitalized due to bleeding of ulcer in the stomach; the ulcer formed due to the medicines she has to take for her heart. What a trial! If things turn out like this, how can a person live.
Ashaunty gave me books. I asked for some different books. I can sure depend on her , you know, coz, I got really different set of 5 different books. I already finished "To kill a mockingbird"....She said , I am not literate till I read that book. So, my dears, See the literate Me for yourself. Well, I really realy liked that book. A beautiful story...with wonderful characters. I promise. I am thinking of studying that book.......I mean, word by word. I really need to improve my english. My language is going to the gutters...and I just don't like it.
Am thinking of atarting on "The longitude" by Dava Sobel, another of the books given to me by Asha aunty...
Bottomline : When you get stuck in your life, try to make a move than wait and ponder ...
