When you are in darkness and desperate for a trace of light...the time comes when you start losing hope. Well, I was just saying a fact. Nothing else. I am not in dark. I can see, clearly, as much as much specs allow me. :D Well, my inner self is not clouded either. Well, not that much. But I am under a strain put upon me ,not by my fault but by the stupidity of a spineless moron who fancies himself to be in love with me! I don't kno how far I can go without losing my control, and spitting at him or slapping him. I have told him off three times, during the past 1 month. 3 times!! And this disturbance did not start 1 month back...it started , like 6 months back! I don't boast of being bold, or strong or anything..I have my own problems.I hate to confront things. But, I cannot put up with nonsense. I despise him. I seemingly act strong, when I am totally miserable at being stalked so. I wish I could tell somebody. I've told my friends, everytime before...but now, I feel reluctant..they are my great friends...but I kinda get this feeling 'what can they do'! But I also know that eventually, I'll turn to them for help..and they'll do so without any hesitation ..
He tried to talk to me directly, at first. And he had no nerve to do it. Now, he sends mails. He send me a mail....telling that all is over! And, he uses God to blackmail me. My rage has no boundaries...I hate people who uses God as leverage. I may not be very close to God, but I do respect my God enough; than be blackmailed . About half an hour after he send the mail saying "he wil not disturb me again, that all's over"...he sends me another ..saying that he needs a reply by mail..and "you should not let your anger remain after sundown'...is he out of his bloody mind! And, what's more..he is stupid. .. it was already hours past sunset. Then , today, I get another mail...saying well, in short that "he still doesn't have it over"...I felt like wanting to kill him...Fortunately, I wasn't too well today, wasn't too healthy to stage the next round of attacks. I don't know what to do. I didnot say it to my friends, since, I am being humiliated time and again. I can't stand it. I can't tell my parents. I have thought considerably about telling my brother MC. But hell! I need to learn how to live my life the way I want it..and how to cope up with the damned obstacles on the way. And I am going to do so.... but God, I feel so uncomfortable...help me!
